Shame On Me For Being With You

You told me you forgot any happy moments in your married life,
You said your sons were a mistake and you hated your wife,
She cried and begged for you to come back,
Any emotion for her you should have felt you lack,
She wanted the family she had with you,
She couldn't accept you were untrue,
Her love she felt with all of her heart,
You and her were never meant to part,
I was wrong to think we belonged together,
How could I think that with you ever,
Our action was evil, cold hearted, and black,
I should have told you to go back,
I began to hate you and the life we had,
My emotions became ashamed and sad,
I loved you, but I hated you more,
I resented you down to my core,
I sent you away in the summer of 2005,
I felt to ashamed to be with you and I didn't feel alive,
When you left I began to feel good and have hope again,
Something I never had when you and I had been,
You begged for me back like your wife had begged for you back,
You will never have me because the adultery was black,
I was wrong to be with you while you were spoken for,
I was your mistress, your little whore,
You belong to your wife who you gave your vow to,
You were meant to stick together and never unglue,
Then you came to my place,
Your marriage we did disgrace,
You with my help broke the commitment you made,
Our bed of thorns we laid,
It is over and we are through,
I will always be ashamed I was with you,
You try to make me remember the good times we had,
Remember what you forgot in your marriage and that made you mad,
There are no feelings left there, just an evil act,
And whole stream of shame came out of that,
No happy moments between us or love,
Just God's anger from above