Shame
that’s my name
Right now
I don’t know how
I forgot how to live without the drink
I stop and think
How could this be
This isn’t me
Not one night alone
No place to call home
I’m falling slowly
The people who know me
They see…
They see that I’ve changed
All these thoughts rearranged
My head cant stay clear
Of what I fear
What I see
What I might be
Which isn’t me
Please stop the pain
Take it away
Cuz I am in shame
For all that they say
But yes its true
Myself I abuse
Right now at this time
My thoughts hate my mind
For letting me be
Nothing to me
Right now I can see
My life is changing
Each little choice I have been making
Is hurting my life and my eyes are not waking
Faking
Taking and breaking
My soul
My heart is so full
But my mind is so dull
Taking and breaking
My soul as I leave it
My mind not giving a shit
But my heart regretting it
Where did I go wrong?
It wasn’t that long
Two years gone
But it meant nothing
So why am I turning into something
Something I’ve hated all along
Something I’ve always thought was wrong
Something in my eyes is weak.. Not strong
Somewhere I do not belong
I know its not me
So why do I continue to be
Something I am not
Lost in my thoughts
Of uncertainty
I wanna break free
And go back to me
But I cannot see
Cannot see the path
It leads me nowhere
But I have to find it somewhere
Cuz there I am free
There I am me
No hating or judging
Just beauty and loving
But I’m struggling
Trying to find my way
To those beautiful days
Where I felt so alive
I could survive
Without the bottle
Without the pain
So bring me back to life again
Take my hand
Take my heart
I need a place to start
I wanna find
My beautiful mind
So take my shame
Give me my name
So I can change
Into me again