Thankyou


No longer will I be silenced, My voice will be heard

No longer will you cage me, I'm now a free bird

If you wanted me so badly, If you loved me so much

Why then, for years, did I long to be touched

Why did I cry myself to sleep night after night

For years, decades it seems, I saw no light

I lived for you, I changed into who you wanted me to be

I lost myself, and became consumed with hurt and insecurities

and for what seems an eternity, I prayed for you to just love me

I began to lose faith and felt as though my prayers were empty

Now I realize, I was just praying wrong all along

So here's to you... this is my song




You changed me, You broke my soul

But now I am finding myself

and soon, I will again feel whole

I need not depend on you

I now depend on me

and I'm no longer silent

When I see you... I will speak

and you will listen, because you will want to

but the only words I will have for you

will be Thankyou




Thankyou for beating me and for cheating on me

Thankyou for stripping me of happiness and security

Thankyou for making me feel worthless every day

Thankyou for making me feel like a bird in a cage

Thankyou for not standing by my side as I battled cancer

Thankyou for never listening, and never having an answer

Thankyou for making me lose three babies

and ofcourse for taking away my chances of ever having any

Thankyou for leaving me when I was alone and needed you most

Thankyou for making me feel as invisible as a damn ghost




I could go on, but I'll just leave it at this

Just wanted to thankyou for all the bull shit

because now I'm a stronger person,

and if I ever do find true love, I'll appreciate it.


~~(C.) / Harmony Fontenot~~