The Accuser and The Abuser

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    The Accuser and The Abuser

     Again I’ve been
    Up all night
    Now here it is
    The morning light

     Struggling anymore
    Just to sleep
    The hurt and pain
    Run too deep

     It won’t stop
    The nightmare of abuse
    Again I’m struggling
    And still confused

     How could this
    Ever be my fault
    I’m thankful I didn’t repeat
    What I was taught

     Thank God I couldn’t
    Have been an abuser
    Couldn’t have handled
    Being that type of loser

    My take is I’m
    Lucky to be here
    Had to overcome
    So much fear

     Had to overcome thinking
    I was a bad person
    When I thought I was there
    Things would start to worsen

     I spent all those years
    Thinking it was me
    Struggling with why
    I was made to bleed

     How do people live
    With having beat someone
    Leaving them lying there
    Totally and completely stunned

     You must find a way
    To not wind up a loser
    When your accuser is
    The actual abuser

     Author: Rodney Timms
    February 24, 2012

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    jj1562 commented on The Accuser and The Abuser

    02-25-2012

    thank you i need to hear that now and them that its not my fault and even if its shit now you've lived to be about thirty (well ur over 17) so i should be able to.

    Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.

    Allen Ginsberg (1926-1997) U.S. poet.

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