I am here,
No one else is near.
Just me between these walls,
A place I no longer get any phone calls.

Where my pain is hiding,
Decisions that are worth deciding..
The tears that are shed,
Before or while I am in bed...

The many times I stay awake,
Stress and thoughts I barely can take...
In the silence and in the darkness of my soul,
Very hard to address this as everything takes it's toll..

To feel empty and of sorrow,
Yet there must be a tomorrow..
I express this for now,
It's the perfect time to allow..

Every now and then it will render,
As mentally I must surrender..
To this state of mind,
Peace I cannot find!

The past still haunts me,
I am not free,
Things were not meant to be,
They fall apart time and time again I hatefully see..

Is this a curse?
Will things continue to get worse?
Or have I found the right path?
Will God forgive me and bring me back?

Is there any hope at all for a lifetime of happiness?

 

I need a hand of love through this road of rough,

I need kisses filled with heart and soul wrapped into one,

I need a chance to be known and wanted by someone,

I just need a break, a chance to rest, where Is the sun?

 

Why do I push away all good in my life & make them turn around and run?!

This Pain and Heart break is so much more then I can take,

I started off baking a cake but it's so shitty, it's still in the oven..

It has to be time for this old life to be done?

 

Please, someone help me out of this closet I am caged up in,

My tears are beginning to fall and soon I will drown and cringe...