The Letter

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This letter/poem is actually one that I wrote to my daughter when she ran away at age 16. I put it here, on this site, as a cathartic measure.

The Letter

I thought of almost everything
Hiding the car keys at night
The password on the net
The long distance block on the phone
Restrictions:
No calls
Then calls in your the living room only
Then calls in your room
as I trusted you more.
Checking outside your window
Reading notes found in your pockets
Giving you extra chores
Loving you when you broke my heart
I thought of almost everthing
Except how much pain I would feel
After you were gone.

You are everywhere
Your earrings
Your make-up
Your candy wrappers in the drawer
Even your razor in the shower stall
Reminders of you in every room
Pictures of you on the fridge
The "Love you forever" note you wrote to me
I hold you in my heart
Remembering when you were small or sick
When you let me comfort you, hold you, love you

Letting go of you is like cutting off my arms
I want you to be safe and feel loved
No matter where you live 
A part of me will always be with you
I lost a daughter before
And thought I would never be asked
To give up another
It is a deep, forgotten yet familiar pain
One that I wish on no one
I know that your safety and happiness 
Are all that I can hope for now
Be well sweet Hannah
Love you so big it hurts.

Mom



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knight4696 commented on The Letter

12-11-2009

A Very deep, honest and emotional piece you have written here. I only have one child - my daughter Vanessa whose 25 and still makes me crazy sometimes. But she's still my little girl. I can't imagine losing her - like you mention, and don't ever want to. ...... Another Great write Lucinda! ..... Ken

Musicmynded1 commented on The Letter

12-03-2009

You are not tooooo deeeeeeep at all Luc,, the world needs deep like this, i love deep like this, this is really great work. Eddie

lonewolf commented on The Letter

11-22-2009

very beautiful lucinda. this reminds me of the problems I had with my son. We have just recently taken the steps of forgiveness. I hope you are experiencing the same.Thanks for sharing.

nonners commented on The Letter

11-19-2009

wow this one choked me up.i could feel your heart breaking.

dumplin commented on The Letter

11-19-2009

I wish my mom loved me like this. She hasn't a clue how.

lucindaclaire

11/19/2009

hi Dumplin, maybe your mother didn't have a good role model from her own mother? or father? I am sorry that you had to suffer so much, yet think of how all the compassion you have gained for other girls, younger than yourself. I think you may have a lot to offer them.

Poetry is what gets lost in translation.

Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

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