THE PAIN SHE HELD INSIDE

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    THE PAIN SHE HELD INSIDE

    SHE WAS RAISED ON THE SOUTH SIDE OF THE BRONX AND BORN AT LINCOLN HOSPITAL AND AS SHE GREW DELICIOUS BECAME THE STRIP NAME SEX BECAME THE TRICK GAME AND THE PAIN SHE HELD STOOD OUT SO YOU COULD SEE RIGHT THROUGH.
    SHE WAS A YOUNG GIRL WISHING AND HOPING HER DREAMS COULD COME TRUE BUT CHILD MOLESTATION RACIAL DISCRIMINATION AND BEING HURT BY MOMMA AND A MAN SHE NEVER KNEW DESTROYED THAT.
    "I CAN DO IT IF YOU HELP ME GOD" IS WHAT SHE PRAYED AT NIGHT BUT FAITH IN GOD WAS LOST AFTER HER FIRST BECAME THE FIRST TO PENETRATE HER HARD AND TIGHT
    SO BAD AND SO HURTFUL THAT SHE SCREAMED FOR HIM TO STOP BUT HE WAS ENJOYING IT SO HE DIDNT STOP TILL HE WAS SATISFIED WITH EVERY SINGLE DROP THAT HE GOT.
    NOW 15 SHE CARRIES A CHILD AROUND THAT WOULD FORCE HER END HIGH-SCHOOL AND RUIN HER PLANS TO BECOME A NURSE AND SHE FIGURED WELL IF I GET A JOB MY CURSE WOULD BE REVERSED BUT
    THE SAY YOUR SINS CATCH UP WITH YOU WHEN EVERYTHING IS GOING WELL BUT THEY ALSO SAY DON'T COME BACK TO SCHOOL WHEN YOUR STOMACH STARTS TO SWELL
    SO NOW HER DREAMS WERE BROKEN INTO PIECES AND SCATTERED EVERYWHERE, AND HER CHILD DIED OF PREMATURITY AND HER LIFE BEGAN TO FILL WTH PAINS AND ALL TYPES OF INSECURITY
    AND THINGS GOT MORE SICK WHEN EASY STUFF STOP COMING IN AND SHE WASNT GETTING PAIN AND SHE THOUGHT HER LIFE WAS OVER WHEN THE REPORT CAME BACK SAID THAT SHE HAD A.I.D.S
    SO NOW SHE DECIDES TO TELL THE PAIN THAT SHE HELD INSIDE AS THE JOHN WITH 1500N CASH IN HIS POCKET PAID FOR EVERY MINUTE AND EVERY NUT THAT CAME WITH EVERY SUCK AND RIDE
    SHE TELLS HIM THAT ONLY HER JOB HAS KEPT HER THUS FAR AS SHE WENT FROM PERSON TO PERSON, SEXING, HOPING TO FIND RELEASE OF HER PAINS IN SOME OTHER MANS CAR
    AND ONE NIGHT SHE DIDNT USE PROTECTION BECAUSE 1 SHE WAS HAPPY FOR THE SATISFACTION AND 2 ACCORDING TO HER THE RUBBER WAS TOO SMALL FOR HIS ERECTION SO
    NOW THE DAUGHTER LAYS HER HEAD DOWN TO FALL ASLEEP AND SHE PRAYS TO GOD HER SOUL TO KEEP.
    COME TO FIND OUT MOMMA HAS NO WORRIES PAINS OR SORROWS 'CAUSE MOMMAS LITTLE GIRL WILL RISE TO SEE TOMORROW
    AND JUST AROUND THE CORNNER LYES A DIFFERENT STORY NO DADDY, JUST MOMMY BUT HER NAME IS GLORY
    HER FATHER GOT HIS LIFE TOGETHER BUT DIED IN HONOR A SOLDIER IN THE WAR
    MOMMA COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE STARTED MAKING TRIPS TO THE LIQUORE STORE ON HUNTS PIONT WHERE GUYS WAITED FOR SO THEY COULD COME TOGHTER AND FIND PEACE IN THE MIST OF A STORM.
    SO SHE CONTINUED TO DRINK AND SHOT CRACK IN HER ARM AND THREE DAYS LATER HER LIFE WAS GONE, SO GLOY DECIDED TO MAINTAIN FAITH IN GOD AND NOT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH ANYBODY WHO SEEMED WRONG TILL SHE FELL ON THE SAME ROAD AS MOMMY AND THE PAIN WAS STRONG,
    BUT SHE GOT A JOB AND HAD A SON WHO WAS ME WHO WAS GIVEN UP AT BIRTH
    AND AS I SIT BACK AND REMONINCE ON MY MOTHER'S AND GRANDMOTHER'S MY SOUL STARTS TO HURT
    CAUSE I REALIZE THAT MOMMA NEVER TOLD ME ABOUT THE PAIN SHE HELD INSIDE CAUSE OUR CONNECTION WAS SUPPOSED TO BE STRONG.

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    mskendrab commented on THE PAIN SHE HELD INSIDE

    01-20-2010

    After reading this all I can say is WOW!!!! That was very deep.....Very nice keep up the good work. S.N proofread before you publish....

    queenrosered commented on THE PAIN SHE HELD INSIDE

    01-20-2010

    This is very dark and painful DX but also very much from your heart and it shows...very well done my poetic friend...thanks for sharing and bearing your soul.Rose XD

    Sorealpoet commented on THE PAIN SHE HELD INSIDE

    07-21-2009

    WOW, Very Interesting, kinda has me in utter shock and speechless, the only thing I can say is wow.

    NayInLove commented on THE PAIN SHE HELD INSIDE

    02-25-2009

    very heartfelt!

    SAYANDSEE commented on THE PAIN SHE HELD INSIDE

    11-27-2008

    I CAN SEE REASON FOR CONFUSION. IT WAS VERY POWERFUL. THAT IS A DISTURBING STORY HAPPENING IN THE WORLD TODAY. IF THAT IS YOU, LET IT OUT.

    Poetry is not a turning loose of emotion, but an escape from emotion.

    T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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