The world from my perspective

sometimes the world is dark and i see no light
the shadows lurk over my eyes and i lose sight of whats important
my heart slows down and i feel like im lost in my thoughts
i dont find no way back from this abyss,blocked from inside
i only hear the wind scratching my ear and i feel cold
i smell fear,and despair and anguish from where i stand
i dont know where to turn ,or where to go
but all along my path im not alone cause my heart follows me
i feel it trying to strengthen me through what made me weak
it tries to black out my pain and anguish but it comes back
cause my heart has been poisoned by the black widow i used to love
it bits a hole into my once pure heart
but i wont let the black widow escape until it feels what i feel
i wont let its hole pierce for too long or kill me
i will stand up and stitch the hole once oh so big
i wont fall to its hatred and despise for i am not that weak now
its shallow pain now only a mark of what to avoid
and its games now just mere children toys
for i am not what loved you for so long
im my own playmaker now
cause i will be the one playing with your heart soon enough