Their Killing Me

This family.What do I say?I sorta hate them but love them.They drive me to DEATH literally.Like picking up my blade and slicing myself up till I die and lose all my precious blood.They bring me to life well thats my friends mostly.But yeah.I wanna burst into tears right now.All the fuckin fighting is eatting me.Eatting my happyness away.Soonner or later its gonna kill me weither they want me gone or not.How do i tell my family their killing me?Their the ones pushing me off this cliff to my bottom less death.Their drivinf me to the point were a hand full of pills or a gun is my only opinion.How do I tell my mom and dad this?I don't know can anyone tell me?This life sooner or later will mean nothing to me and they will be looking at my dead body in a coffin wonderuing why i did this.And the reason will be them.