There's Always a Rainbow After the Rain =)

I sometimes lament the fact that so many things in my life didn’t go the way I planned them. If most of them had, I would have been in my clinicals, and by now I am close to graduating as a Nursing student, starting preparing for NCLEX, or even pursuing a higher degree in one of the University schools.


Instead, I ended up shifting my major from Nursing to Childhood Education, where I almost lost all the credits I gained. Taking Nursing as a major was a mistake at the very beginning for my heart wasn’t truly into it. It’s into teaching right from the very start. To make matters worst, I had to start from scratch. Another worst scenario was that I ended up dropping a class or two not because it was difficult and challenging but because I lost my patience and I haven’t learned anything from my two lazy and “unknowledgeable” professors. Not only that, I also had to deal with my Papa’s disappointment and discouragement that lasted for almost three months. I was even planning to quit my job because I don’t get benefits at all but I couldn’t find a job as flexible as the one I have right now. With the economy that we have nowadays, finding a better job that wouldn’t affect my school and Church duties is very thin.


I took a lot of missteps along the way, either by making the wrong decisions or not doing enough to make my decisions right. Instead of owning up to my mistakes and recognizing the fact that not everything will really go my way, it was easier to get frustrated and blame everyone else.

Not a few times was I on the verge of giving up, but I realized that doing so will not make things better. My dreams are bigger than my failures, and my faith is greater than my struggles. I decided that while there are many things that can take me down, for I am as vulnerable as anyone else, nothing will keep me down, for I will always get back up.


I have gone through so many hardships in my life, especially in the past years. But I appreciate the fact that I experienced all those things, because I was able to test the strength of my character and my resolve. And I am pleased with the results, for the worst times have brought out the best in me. If I was able to remain hopeful and positive even when there was nothing but darkness around me, I can only imagine how much more I could be now that specks of light are starting to brighten my surroundings.


I do not believe in luck, but I know that everything can change in an instant. And for me, that moment was when I decided that I will beat the odds and continue pursuing my dreams. I’ve accepted the fact that I have to start from scratch and earned new credits in school. But nothing could be ever compared to the happiness that I have in my chosen major. I now can take as many English classes as I can that would help me improve my skills in writing and literature. Aside from that, I can treat my internship in elementary schools as “playtime”. But most important above all, nothing and no one can ever hinder me in performing my Church obligations.


Before I end this note, I just want to thank the LOVES of my life for giving me the inspiration that I need. You guys added valuable reasons why I have to work hard and be enthusiastic in finishing school and reaching my goals. Our future plans give me inspiration. Your trust, encouragement and support truly give strength to my soul.


I am very happy with these developments, but I know that there will still be roadblocks along the way. But I am sure that I will never back down anymore from any challenge. I can take on anything that life will put me through for I am guided and assisted by Him who wants nothing but the best for me.


Things are finally starting to look up.