think I'm just done....

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  • ApaqRasgirl
  • Back online after loosing internet for a long time. I am very happy to finally be back with all my friends and I hope to de writing and posting soon. Love Asha

think I'm just done....

I'm not strong, I'm just weak...
I'm not dumb, I'm just numb...
I'm not like them, I'm just me...
Think I'm just done...

Shame on this world, making me swirl...
What do they know my own truth...
Foolish are the thoughts, you silly girl...
I lost my soul, just thinking of you...

Paranoia is deep in my own hell...
Whats the use living without you...

Fight my way back, from your spell...
Love myself better the fool...

I'm not strong, I'm just weak...
I'm not dumb, I'm just numb...
I'm not like them, I'm just me...
Think I'm just done...

My world looks so bleak...
So where do I go...
How many miles will I seek...
To lose my soul to you, how do I know...

infinity now what I seek...
See you again on that yellow moon...
I am weary of my mind grows so weak...
How long must I wait for my endless doom...

Blessing of this life have all passed my by...
There is no more sun, no more fun...
It's time for me to just die...
Come take my hand, holding this gun...

Friend all just hide...
They don't want to know...
How much I needed them to survive...
Nothing is left haunting memories of you...

I'm not strong, I'm just weak...
I'm not dumb, I'm just numb...
I'm not like them, I'm just me...
Think I'm just done...

Written by
Asha
2010
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DrewMcNee commented on think I'm just done....

07-25-2010

" If a tree falls in the forest and no one..........", It is hubris to think that we decide. The earth remembers. It was so before we were and when we become her then will we know. Thank you for giving. Drew.

ApaqRasgirl

07/25/2010

thank you for that great comment, and that has always been one of my favorite questions, statement. We are all part of mother earth and live within her as one of her loving creatures. she cherishes all of the creatures that depend on her to survive. thanks again....lol ooops I was ramblings.........lol love asha

carynontherhine commented on think I'm just done....

07-20-2010

Asha, I have just begun reading your poems. OMG! your words are entering my heart where none have been for awhile. You are surviving though your body is dying and your heart is with him I can tell. Maybe even your soul. Especially if you were soulmates. I do not know what happened as you are so young. But, does that even matter? I love your writing! I can feel it, I can see it, I can live it in my mind. I am so sorry for your love lost. Can't wait to read more. Caryn on the Rhine

ApaqRasgirl

07/20/2010

Thank so very much from the bottom of my heart for your words, they mean a lot to me, yes I miss him ever so much for he was my soulmate, my second husband, and I am not that young....lol,,,but he was much younger than I almost 12 years younger but age made know difference to us, He was killed one morning on his way to work in a motorcycle accident, I do not blame the kid who turned in front of him that day trying to get into the campus parking lot, like so many of us these days always in a hurry, I don't think he even saw my hubby, but I feel bad for the young man to have to live with what happened the rest of his life. Our love will meet again one day on the other side. thanks for your loveing words love asha

WordSlinger commented on think I'm just done....

07-18-2010

Asha, this is creative, for a sad one, concentrate on the love. Believe this is awesome, thank you WS

ApaqRasgirl

07/18/2010

thank you dear for the sweet comment, today Im just feeling blue and the words just come out with truth.. love asha

Poetry is not the expression of personality but an escape from personality.

T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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