Broken hearts lead to sorrow,
Yet, embarresment leads to red face and fake smiles.
I turn laugh, having jolly times!
A thing is brought up and my fists clench my teeth tighten,
My eyes narrow, I speak steadily,
"What did you say?"
I get madder and the guy I like is saying calmly,
and soothingly.
"It's alright Ashley let it go."
I turn almost instantly and woke up.
The same thing just happened but I wasn't dreaming,
and I was crying!
He stays calm even when my flame flares...
My anger ceased and I just cried. Still crying.
He knows I like him and he doesn't like me,
Why does he make it so hard to forget the feelings.
Why?
He makes it so hard to just be friends.... looking in his eyes
I soften.... and calm... I want us to be more and know it can't happen,
I cry as a result... cry so hard I swear a river forms on my cheeks.
I blame it on nature to those around,
My mother even suspected that I could be pregnant!
<3
I have feelings and no one seems to care,
I have a heart that all walk over leaving a hurt without a trace,
I have eyes that are always shut beacause I don't want to see the trap,
Why make it so hard to forget what a friendship I had,
My mind feels like it's reeling but I bet my mind looks more like this:

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I feel like a mess!
I am embarresed and don't know how to show my face to him tomorrow.
<3 or maybe </3