Thoughts and words

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    Thoughts and words

    A breath of air is all I need
    To pretend to be alive
    It seems every word I say
    Is just another nail
    In my already buried coffin
    I wish that I could say
    Everything in my head
    When people ask what's wrong
    But all I do is stutter uncontrollably
    Words I long to utter
    Caught in my resisting throat
    Air ceasing its incessant flow
    And all my life is but a dream
    To my disbelieving brain
    But so caught up am I
    In the never-ending chatter
    I don't always see the lie,
    For what other word can I use
    To describe everything I see
    Surrounding my conflicted being?
    So instead I leave this paper trail
    For those to follow and to read
    If they find themselves in my domain
    For so long I wanted to believe
    In something more than life and hope
    Stead I see open eyed reality
    Standing in the way
    Of the happiest dream I've ever know
    Seems innocence is lost this day
    And the world a darker place
    For the child who believed
    With all her foolish self
    That love and hugs would never end

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    knight4696 commented on Thoughts and words

    01-05-2010

    Very sad indeed Utopia! You certainly have a way with conveying your feelings though .. I really like the lines "So instead I leave this paper trail - For those to follow and to read" NICE!!

    nonners commented on Thoughts and words

    01-05-2010

    ((((((utopia))))))) heres a hug from me. i loved this, its very sad,but i can relate. chin up utopia-we all love you here, and the hugs are never ending!

    Poetry is not the expression of personality but an escape from personality.

    T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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