Tired and Weak

Been ever so sick
Another needle prick
Another bruised arm
Always cold never warm
Going here
And there
Getting no answer at all
Always waiting on the call
But it never comes through
No news is good news though
Appointment after appointment
Disappointment after disappointment
Wish they'd say you have this, take this
Instead of making a wish
Always so tired and weak
Feeling I haven't slept in over a week
Energy is draining
Blood from my vein staining
How many more test
So much for doctor knows best
Beginning to fear
To shed a tear
Going through it alone
Wishing the doctor would phone
Give me answers to the pain
Instead of stealing from my vein
And getting no results back
My body under attack
Bringing me to unfamiliar territory
Questions about family history
Hard to answer when I only know half it
Can hardly take it another minute
How I miss feeling good and well
My bruise on my arm begins to swell
Feeling like the little engine that couldn't
Take it easy, rough play with the kids I shouldn't
They don't understand
Trying to as best they can
Hopefully mommy will once again be okay
Waiting for what the test n dr does say
Tired of waiting and going crazy
Tired of being sick and feeling lazy
No matter what I do
Another test gets order back on the go
I wish a stop to all the madness
And sadness
I wish for answers of why
Instead of my life slipping by
And not getting any better
Just my eyes getting wetter
This wasn't suppose to be the way
So now all I can do is pray