To Bang Or Not

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    • FLAWLES
    • I am the birth of a legend and the mold of an icon; and I've installed myself on the desktop of the world for its inhabitants to keep their eye on.

    To Bang Or Not

    I didn’t mean to join a gang; but I ain’t sayin' I didn’t decide.

    I had to walk to Gompers Jr. High, through three different Crip hoods; and got tired of tryin' to hide.

    So the homies said, “If you want to walk with us, you gotta, be down.”

    It made sense to me, instead of gettin' beat, to the ground.


    So I said, “Ok. How do I, get in?”

    They said, “Don’t trip. That’s the easy part my friend.”

    That’s when three “OG’s, Peabody, Speedy and Pop,

    Started kikkin’-my-ass, in Ascension School’s parking lot.


    BAM! To the chin. BAM! To the jaw; but I didn’t let them tear me apart.

    After awhile they stopped; realizin' this nigga had heart.

    They said, “Get up; you’re in. Now, brush yo-self off.”

    While laughin' and shit, cause they liked how I fought.


    So I started throwin’-up Lanes; and hangin’ that Red Flag.

    I felt like James Brown; cause Poppa had a brand new bag.

    That STILL didn’t make it easy. Bloods are out-numbered, 10 to 1.

    But that didn’t matter, cause some of them niggas had a gun.


    That lasted three years, now it’s time for high school.

    Narbonne, in Harbor City, it was time to grow-up; and act cool.

    Three more years, I graduated. Bangin’, I’m through.

    But Blood is STILL in my heart; and to my dead homies I say “SOO-WOO!”

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    1990lh commented on To Bang Or Not

    11-08-2009

    ok wow first let me say fantastic poem you did an excellent job on it. but I just hate the word gang, cuz it's like a really big hole some jump in cuz they stupid and wanna be apart of something, and some jump in cuz they don’t really have a choice and it is like once you get in yeah it has it perks but it opens up a whole new world of problems. but i completely understand where you were coming from i know a lot of ppl who area crip or blood, and some other ones, and i know alot of them join cuz they really didn’t have a choice they were caught between a rock and a hard place. I know one of my friends kinda remind me of your story. he was always fuck with to and from school, hell at too school cuz the gangs were in the school too. until one day he came to class with his face all f up and he told me he had join a gang. and yeah things got better for him ppl wasn’t fu*king anymore but that was short live cuz he was hot and killed in the summer of 05 so.... idk maybe it's like a double edge sword. one end continue to get jump and fu*k with and not knowing if today they gonna take it one step father, but on the other hand join and you get protection , and some cases connections, but you also gain a whole new world of enemies. but anyway that was his double edge sword he would have got hurt either way but maybe the other end he still be alive. But only GOD knows. but anyway deep expression. And sorry for the paragraph on your page ahaahahah :0)

    boriquamorena commented on To Bang Or Not

    06-23-2009

    I enjoyed this piece it touched home for me. It allowed us to see it from adolesent to adult hood. There is a diffrence in being gang affliated, associated, and related. You can see your heart and soul in your poems.GOD BLESS

    FLAWLES

    06/24/2009

    Hello young lady. I'm glad you enjoyed this. This is just MY experience as far as the gang-bang-thang goes. I hope and pray, AFTER, havin' a son shot because of doin' that bangin'-thang, my grandchildren can live a life without bangin' or, HAVING, to bang.

    litldeer commented on To Bang Or Not

    06-19-2009

    WOW. You took me straight to you on this poem. I haven't always lived the best life and had business dealings with many crips and bloods in jersey. It was not a pleasant dealing. White people buy their drugs from gang members and had many a guns placed to their heads - me being one of them. I'm happy to report I've been clean and sober for one year and don't have to deal with that anymore. But, I never had a chance to get a glimpse into the mind of a gang member. How sad. I made a few friends with gang members through association and they were always so strong and proud. I knew they were dying inside, but it wasn't for me to say out loud. Thank you for sharing this beautiful piece. I'm embarassed to admit that I was a drug addict, but most of my writing allows me to get over that part of my life. Excellent. Thank you again. I'm glad your free.

    FLAWLES

    06/19/2009

    Most people have the wrong idea of how alot of youngsters get caught up in gangs. For alot of us it was a survival thang.

    AmadeusEx commented on To Bang Or Not

    06-17-2009

    i found you through jade, she comments on everything, youre a world apart from me but i definitely see the beauty in the world you describe through your poetry, and the danger as well...loved this one, you took me there with this

    FLAWLES

    06/17/2009

    Thank you for the props FIRST, you gave to, well, I call her EB. Anyway, she's brilliant. Like you said, we're a world apart, well. look what she did. Case closed. Thank you as well for me, for your comments.

    SEVEN commented on To Bang Or Not

    06-14-2009

    I feel ya on this piece....Im not tryin to get no 1 mad or hatin for what I said about bangers....But its has to be said about what about what been witnessed and hopefully the message get across to the blacks that need to read it...maybe they will look at themselves and ask the question why did they did what they did and how they can change or help others to change...Im just pissed cuz my brother got taken out by all this senseless violent that plague the blacks in this country....which I believe we killed off the KKK....if ya see what I mean...well there's more to come...

    FLAWLES

    06/15/2009

    Just remember, "bangin" is a "West-Coast" thang. Your brother's death, and I'm sorry for it, was not a "bangin" thang. True enough, every city in every state has people in gangs. NOT THE SAME THANG! Here on the "West Coast", We-gang-bang! And aside from what the videos on TV has portraid, if you ain't from the "West-Coast", you ain't from the life-style of "The West". Your brother got caught-up in some shit that had nothing to do with "gang-bangin".

    Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.

    Allen Ginsberg (1926-1997) U.S. poet.

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