I lie awake way past midnight most nights

tormented by demons that need exorcism

thinking of the things that have been the threads in the fabric of my life

wondering what is it really that's keeping me together

and its nights like this that words like these spin in my head

and time takes flight as i try to spit the torment out of my head

the darkness slithers...creeping like shadows to inhabit my thoughts

and I remember the Pentecostal preacher thumping on the pulpit

..reminding us that when the Devil reminds us of our past , we should remind him of his future

really? i wonder what he knows this Bible thumping man..about the horrors of my past and the gloom of my future

and how does reminding the old Devil about his future absolve me of my past/ damn soothsayer!

I lie awake inevitably thinking of broken relationships, hurt and lies

dark thoughts of revenge and regret

and bitterness boils anew...insomniac rage

tv lights flickering..in a quiet room not broken by snores

but staring ,sightless eyes at the ceiling listening to the deathly silence

loneliness pervading..will it never end?/ it is possible to be in a room surrounded by people and painfully alone, I know.

and night after night finds me keeping company with shadows and barking dogs and a tv and ...

silence only broken by the constant thoughts in my head