What is it with men and POWER?

what's so wrong with feeling vulnerable
and weak
incapable.
insufficient.
helpless.
completely taken over?
...especially if its by the one you love.

I'm the beauty in the breaking.
the selfless liars tainted.
Dare contradict me.

*****
i watched a movie tonight with one of my best friends.
it was instantly rippling into my skin....
soaking into my heart.
A memory that i would want to save because i know she's leaving too.
She's leaving too.
And to be honest and sincere, I've became good at this "leaving chapter".
it comes with MY TERRITORY.

We sit and watch the same film in the same spot...
and we both are seeing different things different disguises we shield up from each other.
Or don't?
either way we're guarded.

****
i have two guys standing infront of me.
one is standing infront of me and we've been everywhere but we're going nowhere.
one is standing infront of me and we've been nowhere but it could go somewhere.

She said she's ruined.
he ruined her.
everywhere she looks her mind will slap back to him.