When I think of you

When i think of you
  i become murdeously enraged all the way through
    and every painful slicing thought
         causes me to lash out and hit something.

When i think of us
   i think of our lack of trust
         and how all you did was lie
            and it only made me cry.

When i think of we
  i feel what i was dying to see
     and the life that we faked
          and the pain we concealed.

When i think of you
   i die a little bit iside
      just the thought of your face
          carves a little more out of my heart.

when i think of life
    i think of what i wanted
       what we always should have had
            and what will always be.

When i think of me
   i see a black soulless monster
      just waiting to come out of her shell
          to destroy the reason for all this hate and despair.

when i think of sleeping
   i know the dreams i'll have
      i'll pick up the knife and caress its blade
          and slowly but surely slit your throat

when i think of your death
   i know i will be the one to cause it
     if anyone else even thinks there's a possibility they will
       i'll surely take their lives too.