When everything is quiet...
And it seems the world is standing still...
When I can't hear my heart beat...
When I can't feel the pain...
When I am whole again...
And it seems I was never anything else...
I think I understand.
When everything is so loud...
And the world is spinning too fast...
When my heart beats weakly inside...
When I can only feel the pain...
When I am a million peices, floating in the wind...
And it seems I will never be anything else...
I know I'll never understand.
When everything is quiet...
And I can't tell how fast the world is moving...
Knowing it goes on without me...
When my tears are louder than my heart...
Although both are silent...
When I can only feel the rain on my skin...
Although the pain is there, hidden somewhere...
When I don't know if I am whole or shattered...
Although I am both...
And I always will be...
I don't know if I should or could...
Ever understand.

Emily Wallace 5-15-09