Wish For Life

I've been searching blind
on empty streets.
I have not the means
to find what I seek.

Left abused and ignorant
by the cruelty of wolves.
I am cask in darkness
and must rely on luck.

But I am no mystic
not a bastion of chance.
I've never been in the favor
of fate or incedence.

I am a soloist playing a duet
an alpha without a mate.
I have born scars like those in war
but have never seen violence.

These pages were forged by pain
and inked with tears.
Existance itself seems intent
on my torture and utter end.

Desperation has bred intent
beyond all reason and hope.
I cannot survive this winterland
if I am to hunt alone in my life.

I've consulted the advice
of all I can acknowlege.
It has left me wanton
and unable to function.

Ignoring the pain
has only bred it's success.
I have been wracked
with sickness no physician can detect.

Possessed of this madness
it must make me insane.
It makes me long for
the problems of other people.

To attempt to go on
is to fight an army alone.
I must petition aid
from an uncalled upon source.

I call out with all my soul
praying my heart to the divine.
Whatever etheral ear can hear me
bless me as you have so many others.

My Creator above please
hear my sorrow.
Let my soul's suffering
be not in vain.

Cast upon me your
eye in kindness.
Show your boundless
favor to me.

I am an
imperfect sphere.
Form for me
my missing half.

Forge a soul
to end my misery.
Save me from
my own Abyss.