Within Turmoil

within my darkest dreams,
Within the shadows of things,
I stood alone and afraid,
To give myself a chance to live,
I stand still, watching all things,
I smirk and snicker,
So forgiving of things,
though I will never forget,
I been so betrayed,
but it won't happen again,
I pick up a knife,
and slice open my wrist,
I giggle so evilly,
I watch the blood drip down from me,
so precious a blood,
of one who was once loved,
I used to be happy,
but I lost the hope given me,
It was ripped away,
When I needed it the most,
I used to smile,
but it was stolen from me,
it was taken,
when I craved it the most,
I then take the knife,
and thrusts it into my chest,
I fall to the ground,
my eyes stare off blankly at nothing,
I wanted to live,
but the pain was too great,
I wanted to breath,
but the heartache consumed me,
Why must one suffer,
while others have the good life,
so many trials,
so many lies,
we must think of others,
and not of only ourselves,
this may not happen in realty,
but in their emotional state,
this is what happens to their heart,
that makes them cower away,
I only have one choice,
I can't keep keeping myself distanced,
only one can bring me to life again,
but I must allow him to do it,
I take a deep breath,
and take his hand hesitatingly,
He smiles and leads me,
to a place where joy can now overcome me.