You promised (for Jordan G.)

You wake up everyday
Half asleep
Half in dismay
You can't stand the pain
Nothing helps

You wonder how could this happen to me
Where could I have gone so wrong
You look at your day
And wish it was your last

You tell your friends
You hate your life
You make them cry
When you want to die

I feel so responsible
I led you there
If only I knew how to help
maybe I couldve saved you
If only you didnt have to try and die that night

This world wasnt made for you
You think no one cares
You say its cruel
That its no fair

Jordan please
Dont give up just yet
Let me lend you a hand
And please dont forget
Your never alone
In this hateful land

I'll catch your tears
as they drop
I'll hug you tight
and tell you to fight

The night you told me..
you were ready to die
I never cried so hard in my life
I took a knife
and was ready to die with you

You can't stand it no more
Your crying
Telling me you can't go on
Im crying trying to help

In a split second the line goes blank
Im crying more than you could think
Im screaming your name
Im praying to god
Hoping your okay.

Im at your grave
It's 2006
It says loved son and loved friend
I wonder everyday if I couldve saved you

My life isn't the same
I still remember you
I always will
I cry everyday
its been a few years

You meant everything to me
You were my dearest friend..
why'd you leave me..
you promised...