you will always be my dad but never my father :: breebree :: Original Poetry

you will always be my dad but never my father
You'r a stranger to me
if i saw you in the street
i probably wouldn't even recognize your face
i guess it would all depend on the time and place
when i was younger
i used to stay up thwe whole night crying
Id be thinking and wondering
if you were even trying to reach me
Do you even understand all the hurt i went through
because of you
You said see you next week
but you never came
at the time i really didnt think anything of it
but as time went by and the week turned into weeks
which turned into months
then progressed into years
the whole time i couldn't help
but shed so many tears
i was never able to tell you
my hopes, dreams, and fears
Didn't think i would remember did you
How could i, i was only five
Had me thinknig how could you
and that all you did is lie
see i didn't understand
how some man could come into my life
and only be there for a moment
then leave
bet you didn't know that that led me to believe
that it was my fault
it was me that made you leave
that i was to blame
i felt so ashamed
waiting for you to come back to me
I wanted so much to tell you
"Im Sorry"
But eventually i grew up and realized the truth
that it wasnt me that made you leave
it was you
i can't help but feel hurt, anger and pain
nevertheless, i also have a lot to gain
i only have a few questions that i deserve answers to
Why did you leave and make me fell so insignificant
did u hate me
did you think if you came around a few times you could conceal it
why didnt you tell me
that i had a half brother
the only reason i know is because on my mother
i guess you must have thought
why bother
you'll always be my dad,
but never my father

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angelchaser commented on you will always be my dad but never my father 06-08-2012: This is heartbreaking. I'll never understand how a man could abandon his child. Being a parent is the greatest thing that could happen to someone and some people could toss that gift aside is something that will never make sense to me. I truly wish I could take your pain away. I know those are just words, but if it were possible, I would do it. *hugs*; Reply to Comment

sk8erpoet commented on you will always be my dad but never my father 06-08-2012: I can honestly relate on every possible level. My dad walked out right after I was born so i have no memory of him. But that anger gives you the strength to move on...great write. -sk8; Reply to Comment

jypseygal commented on you will always be my dad but never my father 08-16-2010: Keep writing from your heart. Having the courage to write your truth gives others a connection to the sincerity of your words. You write with a passion to express your pain, hurt and life experiences making your work a 10 as it grasps the heart strings of others knowing they are witnessing your pain and wanting to hear you move through it to a lighter heart.; Reply to Comment

ayyan commented on you will always be my dad but never my father 02-11-2010: The poet is a very deep thinking person and taking much care on dad and father. I like the poetic way of placing the words to express the pain in mind. A very good poem which has touched my mind- ayyan; Reply to Comment

coacher commented on you will always be my dad but never my father 12-03-2009: Well done. I can feel your pain through your work. You have a talent for expression. I adopted two boys that were abandoned by both their mother and father. Both of them are grown up and doing great. Life presents a different road for each of us. We just need to hang on and ride out the bad times and cherish the good ones. I hope to read more of your work when you reveal your true self. Keep the faith kid, you have talent.; Reply to Comment

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