I finally understand what Zen master means
As I walk through totally inured day to day 
Rational observer of deviations of the mean
Untouched I walk serenely through the fray

Though I wonder if this result could be the same
If I were to use Prozac and a spinal block
Am I really so detached or am I just in name
Sane, sanity, sane, I think it is I that I mock

To what purpose this, to lock oneself away
To let go from this one life and fade
Then again I do remember hot emotions sway
This existence is not what my heart would have made

And yet perhaps it is for the best
Rather than plunge back to emotions, hope and despair
That I leave my emotions in total arrest
As I cling so very tightly to very, very thin air