I have come to sense for sometime now that I haven't been my usual self, it feels as there is something inside eating me alive. What's happening to me I wonder? Voices in my head tell me go to church and all the pain would stop. Feeling oh so weak and sick with no appetite for this life I live with no answers and no where to turn I struggle to walk these concrete jungles only to face my nightmares. Not knowing I'm suffering from a disease that has unleashed it's wrath upon me draining me of my life, Alone is where i stand seeking guidance through my journey of complete and utter darkness. Blinded by darkness I fear what the unknown awaits for me only to be lost with despair as my guide dog. So as I wallow in the lake of misery and pain, it's here that I discovered a disease that lies hidden within the walls of my very soul. As I yern to be cured of this disease, it's destined that I am to live, suffer and die no matter what I do to change it. I work hard to achieve for a piece contentment only to make sense of what my fucked up life means. Life is full of ups and downs, twist and turns days come and go, so the day you feel what I feel, we can laugh together. There's no broken heart like mine, so when I walk the valley of shadow,s so why all the long faces.