When an infatuation hits reality

On a bed of red flags

She falls from the pedestal I placed her upon

She wins

She is no more

As she wishes

That feeling

Is gone forever

The next time our eyes meet

She wont feel that feeling

The one that used to draw us together

I’m walking away

From another misplaced feeling

I don’t want to be an ass

I don’t want to bother her

I don’t want to argue

I’m simply walking away

Not just from her

But from myself

I needed her

And she wasn’t there

She should have felt better

I’m an empty shell numb inside

Without her

Why is intuition always right

I knew it was a bad idea

But the way she touched my Heart

I needed her

For reasons she doesn’t know

For reasons she doesn’t understand

I’m left to my Dreams

Because my nightmares

Have taken over my reality

The amount of memories that haunt my soul

Will require an unbreakable woman

An unbreakable commitment

A dedication that will never abandon

A loyalty that feels like Love

Today was a day

I needed Love

Instead

I’m left with my reality

All I have is myself

I don’t have someone to hold

To talk to

To Love

 I’ll dance with one empty shell after the next

When will I find something, someone

Worth my hand, my Heart, my Love

I’m tired of giving and not receiving

I don’t want to be a monster

Can I say I even know how to Love

I want to Love somebody more than myself

So show me one woman

That won’t abandon me

Farewell happiness

Maybe my heart was never meant to know what Love feels like

After the things I’ve done

Lost

But strong and independent

Not by choice

By survival

-Fin-