I used to smile by the mere thought of you….to see your face made me smile too. Now, I think of the hurt, the pain, the despair…how on earth did I end up here? I thought my love was grand, worth its weight in gold, now to think of the many ways you’ve hurt me, each day makes my heart grow cold. Did I not love you enough, did I not say “baby, how was your day?” Did I not laugh at your silly jokes, Did I not give enough compliments your way?”

I don’t know, all I know is that I used to smile by the mere thought of you…to see your face, made me smile too. Did I not give you lovin’ every SINGLE way you ever wanted or could desire? Did I not kiss your lips to set your soul on fire? I believed in you, I believed in us, I believed in your dreams your goals, you know YOU, I guess all in all, what I believed, wouldn’t make you believe too.

I used to smile by the mere thought of you…to see your face, made me smile too. I prayed for you, I prayed for us. It was a quiet prayer with no hoopla….no fuss. Just protect you and bless you with goodness, help us to be strong in times we are weak…I did this often, 3 or 4 times a week. Now, I feel sadness, alone, and empty…I see when you look in my eyes, you really don’t see me.

I guess the moral of this story is when you love…love with all you’ve got. Just know that the one you are loving, may not be in the same spot. Although they didn’t accept your love with open arms, they can’t take away the love GOD has given you without hurt or harm. Although with YOU my heart has grown cold, but the right love will thaw it out and give me something to hold.

You know…I used to smile by the mere thought of you, to see your face made me smile too.