wish

I wish I had a nickel for every time ive tried to look on the cheerier brighter side of life, people say dont look so down and sad dont wear your emotions on youur sleeve.I am so damn tired of hiding behind fake smiles,and mediacting away the memories. So what, who cares if I look hurt,anxious,betrayed and tired? If that is What I am feeling shouldnt I as a human have the right to say how i feel?
God forbid I make someone feel guilty for doing wrong.
I wish for once I could just be me without the hassle of the crowd without the do and dont do's hanging all around. I wish for once everyone could see the raw the creative the woman the me.