Aspire

(A JOURNEY)

I am ugly, I am broken, battered, bruised, and full of fear

I am numb, uncomprehending as to why I’m even here

I am lonely, I am needy, long ago extinguished was my fire

Father, help me…I am listening, for today I will Aspire

Still so lonely, still tormented, though I’m taking baby steps

Have I purpose, can I make it, or am I just kidding myself

External pain is fleeting, but the internal cuts so deeply

Am I wrong, am I to blame, do I deserve what’s happening to me

Sun is shining, slowly rising, I see more sun each passing day

I am thinking oh so clearly, I believe in that for which I pray

Moving forward, won’t look back now, I feel the spark known as desire

Going to make it, gaining strength, thank God for the courage to Aspire

I was down trodden, existed in fear, I felt I was nothing, and was weak

 I was silent as I screamed, but now have a voice with which to speak

Such acts are NOT okay, and in my very bones I feel it

Was too ashamed to speak out before, now I boldly dare to reveal it

I am beautiful, I am strong, I love life and want to live it

I’ve been wronged, but I am blessed, and today I can forgive it

I am soaring oh so high now, my fire’s renewed, I am a SURVIVOR

God held my hand as I went out on a limb, and dared to Aspire