Dripping, seeping,

It's everywhere.

Infecting my mind,

Stealing my cheer.

Slowly draining

My life away,

Killing me

A little more each day.

Taking my furture,

Sealing my past-

I don't know

How much longer I'll last.

The darkness closes in

More and more.

It's getting harder

To just shut the door.

Wiping away my memories,

Hallucinations in their place.

It seems that I'll

Be the first to win this race.

First of my friends

To finally give in.

First of my friends

To feel I can't win.

The darkness in the light,

I just don't want to fight.

Happiness is missing,

Even though it felt so right.

Falling in, falling under,

Dropping beneath the weight.

Nobody knows what happens

When I open that gate.

Time to disappear now,

Scared to death to die.

But sometimes the only answer

Is what your most afraid to try.

Time is passing quicker now,

Everything is just a blur.

Pain is the only feeling

With which I can concur.

Swallowing me up,

Drowning in my sorrow.

I find myself wondering

If I will see tomorrow.

A single ray

Lights my way,

But it doesn't

Brighten my day.

A single ray

Of suicide

Is what the ocean

Brings with the tide.

Panicing, I can't breathe.

I know I'm running out of time.

And even though I'm hurting,

I know I'm in my prime.

Dizziness is setting in,

To late to turn back.

Ever since the pain,

Ever since the wreck.

Slicing, cutting,

I don't know what to do.

All I know is I'm wishing

That I could just call you.

But you made it clear to me-

My friendship you don't want.

You held it up in front of me,

You meant it as a taunt.

I have no one to turn to,

And so I write these words,

Words that are meant for you,

So that you can understand your curse.

You killed me when you left,

You were my last dieing hope.

And when you took off,

You took my friends, my safety rope.

And so I'm falling deeper now,

Deeper into the past.

Once in there there's no return.

I know that I won't last.

So know that your a murderer,

In action if not in deed.

Couldn't you see I was hurting,

Or that I was in need?

So now I hold the knife in hand

And I have to wonder why,

Why am I the one who's hurting,

The one who has to die?

And now I'm cutting deeper

As I begin to cry,

For the only way to end my pain

Is for me to die.