When I said “one last kiss”,

I didn't realise you meant it.

Had I have known,

I wouldn't so easily have spent it.

I would have held it forever, us together forever

Anything would have been better

If it meant not losing you.

Had I have known

The words you whispered were lies,

Would I have carried on?

Would I still have tried, despite

The loss of connection? The dismissal of affection?

I knew it wasn't perfection

But I still listened to your murmured reassurements.

Had I have known

how much your absence would hurt,

I don't think I ever would have laid

In your arms so inert. I can still remember

The words locked in my lips, the memory of your kiss

Living in ignorant bliss...

Your hands on my hips that refused to stay -

I remember how you pulled away.