Yes, I do remember you. I'm sorry to say, someone I have tried to forget. I kept you locked away in my memory. The times we spent together where all in vain. I must say that we learned a lot together and every experience and situation made us stronger. Looking back I thought we made a good team, but only because I needed you. You where my escape. Your world of reality became mine, to the point where I lost me. Or should I say, there was no me only you. You controlled our life and robbed me of who I am.

It was your dream to be a singer. Even though that dream was wonderful, that was you voice not mine. The awards you have from that night, they belong to only you. In your world they brought great joy and recognition. I hope you treasure each and every one of them.

The year 1976 for you a time when the world crowned you in all your beauty. The crown that adorns your head holds no value for me. Though I wished I could say it was my reality. They never will crown my beauty. My beauty flows from the inside to those lives I touch on the outside. My face is one that many my see, and some may even love, but my hidden beauty is a crown of love.

Our Hollywood adventures. In my mind and in my heart, wher box office flops. Your name up in lights, with all of your fans. All the movies you made I'm sad to say none touched the real you. All of the movies full of illusions. Like the illusion of you being my very best friend. Cameras created your world and built up the many realities your world exist in.

That's why I'm taking this time to write you and tell you to find another friend. Someone like I use to be. Someone who not yet knows how wonderful and beautiful they are. Someone who believes that beauty is only placed on the outside, that what ever is on the outside controls what you become on the inside. Find another friend who believes that by mans approval they become great.

I'm not that girl anymore. Something happened to me that I didn't expect. And though as a little girl you kept me company,through many lonely times, I've found a new friend. He brings great joy and recognition. He shows me all of the beauty hidden for many years. He tells me that its nothing to please man, but to serve him in all his glory. He is my friend that will never leave me. And after all I will get a crown. My crown won't lose any of its splendor nor can it be taken away. He will give it to me for not being beautiful , but full of his love.

So I say goodbye and I hope that the next little girl that you posses finds her true friend before she losses herself. It took me awhile before I truly found my very best friend Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior. As I put an end to all of our adventures, I start a new adventure full of reality and nothing but pure joy that will take me to new levels seen and unseen.

Goodbye
The real ME