As I sit there -----and I listen-----I envision your eyes.
I crop a smile that's------ longer that a river------deeper than an ocean-----desert wide.
I often wonder------- what you think about -----the silly things I say?
Of all the nonsense-----and the drama-----going on in my head.
How could I appear strong-----but emotionally -------be in two places at one time?
Holding on to----dreams of blissful wonder------and my heart is going dry.
I could nourish it------if I wanted to-------by taking another path.
I could ask you------for your love and comfort------and I know forever it would last.
As I sit there------and envision------the disappointed look on your face.
I know in your mind------you keep telling yourself------keep on moving-----keep pace.
I often wonder-----how could this happen?-------now I see that it really does.
Why am I so foolish?--------so blinded?------by his rendition of love.
I am in a maze--------I have a man so clever-------he has all the answers for sure.
I allowed him------to manipulate me-------keep me grounded------off shore.
I often wonder-------what is my problem?--------why can't I let that man go?
Just move on forward--------to a happier place-------where I know I can grow.
As I sit there-------on the phone again------and I hear it in your voice.
One day--------you will grow weary---------in hoping I make the right choice.
It's very hard for me------to admit and say to you-------I never had my heart torn in this way.
It's because------I'm loving my husband-------wanting my family------trying even harder not to stray.
I am forever hearing you----forever feeling you------knowing exactly what your love means.
I have to find the courage------to trust in God----and believe he's fulfilling all my dreams.
I hope that-----he will bless me-----with his mercy and peace.
I want that inner Joy when I sing.
I will always-----hold onto the hope------of having the closeness-----True Love brings.
If it's not broken-----don't fix it-----that's a motto -------we all know.
If it's broken-------beyond repair------salvage the good ------and let go.
God help me daily------as I live with------my inner struggles and doubts.
Help me be strong------and remain wise------while I find my way out.
I often wonder------as we say goodbye------at th end of our calls.
Will you be there-------when I call again-----play another hand----or just fall?
As I sit there-----feeling so badly------about the way-------I make you feel.
Just remember-------I'm in pain too-------because I found your love -------it's so real.