Inside life

Life has been a rush, but i couldn't find a stop. Every time i tried to go to the top. Something always block me like a rock. Life could be anything i dream but it tries to pus me to fall.What can i do except watch that beautiful life i had. My life can't be counted as a whole.It's like many pieces has been dropped into my final hole. There's pain deep inside my heart that no one knows. I wanna know how long have i been in that hole. How long should anybody know. That empty space inside me is killing my family. I tried to show happy faces but i think I'm really going through some phases. My heart feels like its about to pop. the clouds and the night sky is the only enjoyment I have to watch. That hole feels so deep, no matter what i do there's no way to open that hatch. Some people think I'm a nobody and some think I am somebody. To my concern, I think they're true I am a nobody. Life is hard to control with your heart. The hurts cannot get away even if I just try to restart. I've been in that hole for so many millennium. Sometimes I think about what would life be in my mind. Nothing happens except for just a big Sign. When i look at it and read it, it says"Nobody wants you here just get out". every where i go, I see "Get Out". No life i had was great to be happy with. This life, I can't do anything for it just let it be free. The only thing i have to do is wait and pray. Peace out cuz i have nothing to say.