I've Become Completely Numb

I've become completely numb.

I have no feelings to write down.

I just sit here hearing the ticking of the clock:

Tic... Toc... Tic... Toc... Tic... Toc...

Sitting here watching time passing by.

And still, I haven't written a single word.

All those feelings that I used to write down,

I used to express through my poems,

They have all faded away like the moonlight at dawn.

I've become completely numb.

And It kind of scares me a little.

Ever since all I used to write turned in to blades,

I've been yearning to be freed from my feelings,

Wanting to burn them, turn them all into ashes.

It's funny though, I couldn't read my own poems

Without hurting my feelings.

I couldn't read my own poems

Without tears coming out of my eyes.

I've become completely numb

And it's such a relief for me.

I've been trapped inside my feelings since last autumn.

It's like they've locked me up and threw away the key.

And now that I'm freed, everything seems so simple.

Maybe that's the way it should be.

Maybe It's for my own well being.

Well, I sort of asked for it,

So I may as well deal with it.