LIFE

Am i destined to be miserable?
for that's all i seem to know.
I don't seem to know how to be happy anymore.
I once was happy, but that seems so long ago.
I try and try to fin happiness,
yet seem to fail at every attempt.
Is it too much to ask to be happy?
I don't think so,
So why can't I find it?
All my like I've been told I'm no good or a failure.
For now that's all i seem to feel.
Never happy, always sad, always crying.
I'm trying to let go of the past and move on,
Yet my past always seems to haunt me.
How do I let it go?
How do I move on?
I want more than anything in this world to be happy.
To enjoy life like I see others enjoying life.
Am I asking too much?
I really don't think so.
I just can't seem to move past all the hauting memories.
Childhood is something that you are supposed to enjoy.
Yet mine was not that.
Mine is something I've tried all my life to forget.
Every attempt has failed.
One more thing to be a failure at.
I strive and strive to be a better person,
to overcome my past.
But no matter how hard i try it still haunts me.
I want a normal life.
Yet it seems so far out of reach.
Destined to be in misery since I can't shed the past.
Ill keep trying till I succeed.
For despite what others may think,
I'm not a failure.
Yes I have made my share of mistakes, who hasn't?
I'm not perfect,
I'm only human.
I will keep striving to be happy,
for I will not let that dream go!
I will continue to shed my past and become the woman I know I can be.
Until then I guess I'll be in misery.
However, I will not let it get the best of me.
I refuse to let it!
So from here I continue to strive till I achieve.
One day I will be happy,
Depsite what others may think.
I will once again prove them wrong!
One day I promise you this,
I will be happy and shed the past.
This is a promise I make to the world.
I will be happy!
Yes I will!