me in the flesh

I don't know how else to put this
its taken me so long to do this
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight.
My muscles feel like a melee body is curled in a u shape
I put on my best but I'm still afraid
propped by lies and promises saving my place
as life forgets maybe its time I saw the world
I'm only here for awhile but patience is not my style
and I'm so tired that I gotta go
what am I supposed to hide now
what am I supposed to do
did you really think I wouldn't see this through
tell me I should stick around for you
tell me I could have it all
I'm still to tired to care and I got to go
I'm following suit and directions I crawl up inside for protection
I'm told what to do and don't know y I'm over existing in limbo
I'm over the myths and placebos
I really don't mind if I just fade away
I'm ready to live with family
I'm ready to die in obscurity
cuz I'm so tired that I gotta go