Love Can Kill

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    Love Can Kill

    (Dedicated to all who have been abused and think it won't happen again)

    I remember when we went out on our very first date
    Little did I know that would be the beginning of my fate
    He was so handsome and a smooth talker at that
    Tall in stature and not an ounce of fat
    In fact, he had a very nice physique
    The kind of man any woman would seek

    While we were dating there were signs of jealousy
    But I paid no attention
    He was only showing his love for me
    Besides, I was in love and nothing else could I see

    Yes, he would slap me around a time or two
    I warned him if it continued we would be through
    And later when we got married
    I thought all of the abuse would change
    After all, I was now wearing his name
    But it only got worse and so did the filthy names

    After our two children were born
    I knew we were finally a family
    However, having a family didn’t matter to him
    Soon thereafter he began mistreating them

    Lord, what am I going to do?
    I had no intention of letting my family know
    What a mess I was in
    I avoided them until my bruises healed
    Looking back, I really knew my fate was sealed

    The day before Father’s Day
    I asked him what did he want for dinner?
    He rose from his chair
    And said he didn’t want a goddamn thing
    Those words really hurt
    I told him he shouldn’t be so mean
    He hit me so hard
    I saw more stars than I’ve ever seen

    My eldest daughter was only three
    And came running over to me
    “Daddy hurt you, mommy? she asked
    As I wiped the blood from my mouth
    “Go out and play, baby” I said to get her out of the house
    It was then I heard a loud blast
    And felt a sharp pain
    I couldn’t run; I couldn’t talk
    Blood was everywhere
    It was then my heart stopped beating
    Yet I was still bleeding

    I remember it all
    As though it was yesterday
    The ride in the ambulance
    And family members weeping
    When the doctors told them I was gone
    Gone? Gone where?

    Then I knew…
    I opened my eyes to a beautiful sight
    Angels were everywhere singing songs of praise
    Up here there are no nights nor are there any days
    I see so many loved ones
    Who had gone on before
    And glimpses of a few
    Who will be coming through heaven’s door

    I wasn’t afraid and had no tears to shed
    That fatal gunshot wound
    Was no longer visible in my head
    It felt good to be walking these streets of gold
    In a place where no one ever grows old

    My prayer is my girls will learn from my mistake
    They’ve got to, Lord, for their own sake
    I pray God will guide them in everything they do
    And if they are obedient to His word
    The kind of abuse I experienced
    They will never have to go through

    Copyrighted 2008

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    Helios commented on Love Can Kill

    03-14-2010

    Also, by you I mean people in general who offer their love to a person without knowing that person will be abusive.

    Helios commented on Love Can Kill

    03-14-2010

    Terrible... powerful poem, and yes no one should suffer under an abusive relationship. It is sad to hear that there are those who love and there are those with false love. You gave one of the most holy gift to that person and they returned it in a way common animals behave. I pray that this poem rereach those who need strength... God bless your children and you. Helios

    LadyL714

    03/15/2010

    Thank you for your comment. All of my poems are fictional and about no one in particular. It is God's gift to me to make them seem real. You can view what the book reviewer said about my book by going to http://bit.ly/cL67GH.

    susanthewinner commented on Love Can Kill

    06-28-2009

    Powerful emotion, great capture. Good luck to you, I hope you have healed. I pray for you and your children.

    LadyL714

    06/29/2009

    Hi Susan, thank you so very much for your wonderful comment, however, that poem as is 98% of my writing is fiction. I'd even sent it out for review and they all think it is about me. Even the poems I write about the abuse of children, people think it actually happened. Thanks again and I'm glad you liked it.

    Sidecar commented on Love Can Kill

    03-11-2009

    Simply beautiful . . .

    LadyL714

    06/29/2009

    Thank you so very much for your wonderful comment. Others who read it thought it was about me. All of my poems are fictional. Again, thanks. Sorry to be so long in getting back to you but I haven't been on this site.

    Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.

    Allen Ginsberg (1926-1997) U.S. poet.

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