Me...?
Don't want to worry anyoneand yet, I hope someone hears.
It's so hard to keep a happy face
when my heart is so full of tears.
Seen the movie "Monster" last night
sure was feeling all her pain.
I sometimes feel like just giving up
but, then what would I gain?
I was told that I am an angry person
I've never seen me as such.
Now that it's pointed out to me,
I can't use smiles for a crutch.
I've got to face the true reality
that somethings just not right.
So, in thinking of giving up
is it really worth the fight?
I recieved a gift from Heaven,
a beautiful happy Grand baby.
I couldn't ask for more perfection
the angels name is "Kailee"
I want to see her grow up
and want to be really involved.
I just wish all my sadness
could just be somewhat solved.
What happened to all my happiness?
What happened to all the joy?
What happened to the person I was?
Or could it have been a ploy?
Who am I? What have I become?
Am I proud of who I am?
I fight my demons everyday.
Maybe I just don't give a damn!!
I'm tired of being in the middle!
I'm tired of all the fights!!
I'm tired of basically everything!
I feel that life just bites!
Why can't I be happy?
What is so wrong with me?
Why am I always so angry?
I thought happiness was free?
This is not about "Oh pity me"
It's not to make anyone feel sorry,
I guess it's a cry out to the universe
hoping someone would just help me.
I have always believed in God.
Would never do anything without Him.
I don't know why I feel so unhappy.
My whole future seems so glum.
I have to act like I'm happy
as I sit here at work,
but, if I were to show the truth,
you would see a heart that's hurt.
I know I'm up for a heart attack
my whole being is not so good
I can't get myself motivated
I'm just not in the mood!!!
I better end this poem
cuz happy it is not.
Just glad that I'm not brave
to end it with a fatal shot...
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