these are the times that i look back to find just one more reason to hide myself from the world so cruel and the family that i wouldnt mind throwing in a acid filled pool. there screams produce a melody so yet so disturbing to my demon like ears and my demonic soul, but hey it aint all bad theres sum good in it just a lil but ill take it. 19 years of shear inhumane pain, suffering and lost yes ill take my lil piece of happyness. people try to judge but look thru me and u will see the past scars of my life, deep cuts for deep thoughts thats how i see it, life so tragic and so hard yet i walk round with a smile on my face just a lil demonic grin nuthing more, and even tho the cloud is hanging over my head is just the beggining i have a curse, and yes even i have a couple of nightmares and death iznt one of them, i kno im a nice guy its maybe a lil misunderstood just becuz i love darkness and evil dont mean i hate god hes my dad wat can i say, but wit out da ppl that care bout me id be some ones weapon of mass destruction, wit out my mom i wouldnt be here, wit out my sisters i wouldnt even kno how to treat a gurl the way she needs to be treated, wit out my big brother and my g da i wouldnt have the courage and strength that i have, i kno i got sum skeletons in my closet and i kno i havent been the sweetest and nicest guy but the only thing ill probly ask for out of life is the power to forgive and have forgivness, im a mess i kno but the only way to go is foward leave the past in the dust, my past huants me like theres no 2morrow sum times i wanted that to come true no 2morrow but i dont becuz i relized that theres still things that need to be done starting wit myself ill carry my burden as long as i have to to complete the task i waz born 2 do...if ur reading this and think i forgot bout u i didnt i never forget the ppl i care for, my mom my future, my wife, my son. my soul is eternal so as long as ur breathing u damn sure im breathing right next to u in spirit