LouLou’s Profile

Well lets see I was born December 11, 1982 to my parents of course. I have one older bother Jason who has 5 beautiful babies, One sister Allie Mae who has three beautiful little girls and was 7 1/2 months preg with her first son when she passed away at age 27 so unexpecting. I will tell more about that later. 2 little brothers Michael who has a little girl and a new baby boy, and Charley who has no children.
I was maried at 18 when I found out I was preg. with my first little boy Arron who from the minute he was born at 9 lbs. 4 oz we call HOSS. Who arrived on October 10, 2001. Then I had my second little boy Andrew ( Andy ) on March 03, 03 yea thats right 03 03 03. Not long after I delivered my little girl Alexus ( Lexi ) on April 04, 2004. I tried to have her on the 4th. lol Haveing 3 c-cection babies that close my doctors thought it be best I didnt have anymore children, Seeing how I almost didnt make it with my little girl. But of course I didnt listen to them and went on to have my 4th and final baby Jonathan James ( j.j. ) on Jan. 3, 2006. The doctors werent very happy and neither was I when I ad to sign the papers to not have anymore babies because my life depended on it. Though I know that it was God saying ok you have had all you can handle.
My husband and I had split up several times and then last summer 07 we were split up and I was stealing things from stores that my children and I needed. Well of course I got caught and ended up going to prison for 6 months. Boy did I learn my lesson. Well during my incarceration I went to this thing called Epiphany and I learned how much God truely loves me and cares about me. Well a month later on May 30 2008 I called home to see how things were going and while I ask my uncle how things were and he started to cry and told me that my sister had died. It was an unimaginable feeling of sickness that came over me I could not move my entire body was numb.
There I was in prison and there my family was going through something like that and I could not be there for anyone. Especially my neices LaTisha age 6 Chelsie who just turned 5 on May 20 and Hayley who is 2. My sister and I had our children at the same time. She was so excited because we would have the exact opposite Me with 3 boys one girl and her with 3 girls one boy. And like that in an instant my faith in God was tested. But I remained a big part of the church and the other girls were amazed at what a strong woman they were seeing because I was outside praying for other womens familys that they may be kept safe and that nothing like that would happen to them. I was not allowed to go to my sister and nephews funeral even though I had less than 30 days left on my sentence.
I was released on June 30 2008 one month exctly to the date of their deaths and when I walked out the doors to find my mother crying and dad crying and brother, My husband was there but he was not as emotional. Things fell apart for us very quicly he did not seem to understand the pain I was feeling and he thought I should just be overwhelmed with joy to be in his presence. Not haveing any emotions to what I was going through. So on Aug. 28 he left and found hisself in Virginia and here I am raising 4 children by myself but not alone because God is always here. But let me tell you I am at the hardest place I have ever been in my life trying to get through this year has been a tough one but it is almost over. I love you ALLIE MAE and Michael Nathan James. You are my guardian angels and I will be there one day, I know you will be there to meet me at the gate. LOU LOU