I feel i have been living a LIE... Not a regular lie although LYING is lying. I have been telling MYSELF that it has been FINE up to now little BUMPS here and THERE and GREENER pastures and THINGS.. but in REALITY i have really taken a BEATING and i have DEVELOPED a shell if you will to not let the hits HURT so much.....DIG! i have also told MYSELF that it is ok to be ALONE and it is BETTER that you DEAL on your OWN so is not to hurt ANYBODY else..RIIIGGHHT! this brings me to my POINT of I AM A FUCKIN LIAR and since i have held MYSELF back for so long PUNISHMENT for such HARASSMENT is to LET GO see because if i would of dealt with this HEAD on it would of been so much easier SO TRUE to form i ignored the PROBLEM until it became a living thing BREATHING negative VIBES and lingering LIES.... Now that it has come to my ATTENTION it seems we are going to have to BASICALLY knock down some BARRIERS and scrap a few PROJECTS and FOCUS all our ATTENTION to myself GREAT i need a babysitter how old am i again?JUSTICE will prevail even for something as BRIEF as this to see a true GLIMPSE of myself and see that those WANDERING rivers to NOWHERE actually do have a DESTINATION i just MISSED that boat, But i would just like to say for the RECORD it is going to be quite INTERESTING to shed some LAYERS because i don't think my SOUL can take the strain MUCH longer....all BETTER now!