SOMETHING INSIDE TELLS ME THAT THERE IS SOMETHING MORE. SOMETHING LIKE A SECRET.
IT HURTS. IT MAKES ME FEEL SO LONELY.
MY MIND RACES WITH DEVILISH THOUGHTS OF DECEPTION.
THEN REASON STARTS TO KICK IN AND SAY THAT I JUST NEED TO CALM DOWN. THERE IS NO REASON FOR SUCH THOUGHTS.HOW CAN IT BE. IT'S NOT LOGICAL.
I WANT TO ASK BUT AM AFRAID I WILL HEAR LIES SO WHY BOTHER. ANYTIME I HAVE ASKED IN THE PAST, IT WAS ALWAYS A LIE.
WHY IS IT SO HARD TO TELL THE TRUTH AND LET GO. DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND THE PAIN I AM GOING THROUGH.
I WOULD NEVER WANT THIS PAIN ON ANYONE. YET SO MANY ONLY KNOW THIS PAIN AND CAN'T ESCAPE IT BECAUSE THE OTHER THINKS THEY ARE SAVING US, BUT ARE NOT.
WILL THIS VICIOUS CYCLE EVER END? OF COURSE, BUT NOT AS WELL AS EVERYONE WOULD LIKE IT TO. IT WILL END IN VIOLENT ANGRY WORDS THAT WILL TAKE MONTHS TO REPAIR AND WEEKS OF CONFUSION.
YOU WILL HEAL. YOU WILL MOVE ON. YOU WILL LOVE AGAIN. WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT.