I used to care
I used to have concern
But nothing can fill the void
This life means nothing
I have tried distracting myself
I have tried to divert
My ever searching and questioning mind
But it never works
Now there is only one thing left to do
I must stop my consciousness
I must stop my thoughts
My hope's and my desire's
I must stop feeding my mind with false dreams
I will become the living dead
Shutting out reality
Safe from Cognition
For Not even complete understanding
Could make this life worth living

We Distract ourselves with everything around us
With everything we call humanity
Anything to get our mind off
The one true constant
In all reality, seen and unseen
Nothing can give this life meaning
We have all bought into the distractions of life
From birth, becoming second nature,
Unable to see past the lies.

All these things to do and see
All these things To learn and discover
But for what?
Knowing will not bring comfort or enlightenment
Knowing will not bring finality or consolation
No end to suffering
No end to loneliness
Knowing will not replace the unattainable

Life is just insignificant details
Not even knowing everything
Could make this life worth living
I need what does not exist
And what that is I do not know
What lies beyond death
Might have what I seek
But I cannot prompt my hand to take my own life
Instead I must wait
Time is torture
As I count down the seconds until the end

Do not try to offer me your solutions
For they are only distractions
And distractions do not work on me
You can keep your politics
You can keep your emotions
You can keep your religions
You can keep your earthly pleasures
They do not work on me
I will become the living dead
Shutting out reality
Safe from Cognition
I need what does not exist
And what that is I do not know
And I just keep on thinking to myself
Don't worry
You'll be dead eventually