I really am tired, but I have no one or anything
good to dream about. I'd just have nightmares.
I feel like I am the sunlight that shines in
and wakes you out of that perfect dream. I never
meant to do that. I'm Sorry. I can feel the night rushing
me out, and I can see everyone I woke
up and attempted to brighten their life has
tired of me choosing not to wait on the night.
They have installed blinds so that my existence
no longer affects them. Me I pray for the night
to come and stay. I know the past is the past,
but sometimes I feel my reality is that my
destiny has passed and I have no future. The
doors of my future are closed. The welcome mats
of my past are gone and everywhere I go now I
see a do not disturb sign. I am walking around
and everyone I knew has donned a Halloween
mask and now I can't find anyone. Maybe I've
slept my whole life and the happiness I think
I've had was merely a dream. Now I'm awake
and the sadness and grief I feel is my
actuality. I wish I never woke up. I pray
for the moon to rise and never set. I pray for
the night to rush in. I pray I fall to sleep again.

James Henry Jones Jr.