The Dirty Little Secert

Have you ever had a dirty little secret? You couldn't take it anymore and didn't want to keep it? As I sat on the couch quit as a mouse gram pa whisper in my ear were going to play a little game my dear but gram ma must not know he touch my chest and I guess you can figure out the rest I felt scared frighten you see, wondering what the hell did he see in me? was I bad I was just a little kid wonder if anyone knew what he did as the days went by I would just cry and cry when night falls that's when he crawl on his knees and does just what he please I felt so bad so dirty with shame I did not like this game he put so much fear into my heart in my heart I wanted to tell gram ma but didn't know where to start he made slashing jester's with his hand up to his neck looking at me I thought i would have a heart attack he put one finger up to his mouth and said if you tell i kill you before you leave this house finally I was freed from all this fright but some times have night mares a night so when I sleep I'm in a confused  state forced to awake to deal with the guilt and his mistake even on his death bed when he was called i wondered if he was sorry, sorry at all the dark cloud is gone but the pain lingers on sometimes in life there are things you have to shake so you can move on with out making that same mistake I forgive him and myself as well, but no doubt it crosses my mind if hes in heaven or hell.