The Number I Hate the Most

There is a number deep inside my mind
There is a reason why it stays there locked so far behind
This number isn't beautiful this number isn't whole
This number doesnt really count because it cannot be controlled
I hate this little number with all that i hold dear
And everything it means can just disappear
I love my baby and all her entirety
But the one thing that she's ever lacked is fully trusting me
I may have lied once or twice but that was the very last
But it's mostly because of other guys who've wronged her in the past
Wanna know how these go hand-in-hand the number is 9.5
Because that's how much she trusts me and it cannot be revived
The number is from one to ten pretty high upon the chart
But it's still no good unless she trusts me with all of her bleeding heart
There is no point in trying to change it i'll never ever suceed
So i'll wade it out for now untill she finally can see
That all I want from her is a life of love and happiness
But all she can do is show me her faithlessness.