Some days I just feel like crying because you will never see the depth of my faith for us
Hell, if I don’t show it-how else are you going to see it?
If I put in the effort and get turn down, I’ll be hurt AGAIN to my core because I want this chance to be the last and final opportunity
Yea I’m selfish, I know this
Rejection is death
Scrapping the emotions out of my heart to be a true best friend to you because I thought that’s what you only wanted
My heart cries for you, all of what you’ve been through, and me
What those girls have done to you, I will never do but I did the unthinkable and broke your trust
Without trust, you have nothing
If I know what I know now, I would have taken better care of you and us
My heart cries everyday and tries not to break at the sound of another name

I know I say stuff without thinking destroying everything in my path
I try to speak from the depth of my soul but the words don’t come out right
I just wish you could see into my heart and feel the love I have for you, maybe then you’ll understand
But reality plays a major role-it is, what it is
I can’t get hurt again because the pain will be too much to bear
But when will I be ready to take that leap of faith and actually fight for what I want……
I say “I’m not getting married, I’m not having kids” because I’m not with you to produce those things
Only time will tell and I’ll God direct our paths because in the end His will, will be done
Playing secret lovers under the best friends umbrella

Have encountered guys that doesn’t do the stuff that you do
You accept me for my flaws and all and unknowingly saying stuff that pushes you away from me
You touch me inside and out, mentally, physically, emotionally
You got a key to the depth of my heart that no other guy can get into to
I’m here with open arms
People say that we hurt the ones that we love the most, people that are dear to our hearts
But how comes I haven’t learned to reverse that method

Have I lost you?
My heart says something else
“It’s better to have loved, than not loved at all”-at least I can say that about us
Being your friend is cool. I accept it.
Next in line please, step up