have you ever given everything up
for the one person you love?
even if it meant losing friends,
leaving the one you love,
jus to get with the person she wants you with.
even if hes unfaithful to you,
even if it meant depression for you.
all i wanted was for my mother to be proud of me.
but now, shes not my mom,
now im the main sourse of her pain.
i hate her, i cant stand her.
there is no god, he doesnt exist.
how do i know?
if he existed why does he put me through so much pain?
i tried so hard to be trused, to do things right,
but yet all im left with is anger and depression.
i use to waste my tears on her,
id ask myself on sleepless nights,
does she love me?
does she care?
an id stay up all night,
wondering an crying, jus filled with confusin.
but now, shes not worth it,
shes not woth crying for.

-Amanda Martinez