A question I ask myself not too long ago.I still haven't come up with the right answer; Truthfully I'm not sure,so this year I'm gonna take this time out out to find myself and put some prospective into my life.And also to understand and accept myself for who I am, what I am and who or what I am not

*What is the meaning of life*?

Right now I'm not sure but this point of my life consist ot constant thinking seeking.Who am I?why am I here?what do they want from me?what was I put here to do?what is my purpose of life/living? other than the ordinary.Thou shall not Lie,Cheat,Steal,Sin,Disobey nore shall he fight All for what?

I am only human
Not yet a woman
A lost little girl
Who seems to think
That hell is a place called "Home".

Someone in need of Love
Someone in need of Warmth
Someone in need of Respect
Someone in need of a Meaning of Life
Someone in need indeed

Am I happy no
Sometimes I may put on a smile
as the tears fall from my eyes
Tears so soft, yet I feel so lost.

After being separated and hurt
I now wrap myself with music
kinda like having iron as a soul
But with heat iron is melted
awaiting to become gold.

I lie
I sin
I cheat
I steal
I fight
Just not to reveal
what's within will forever be sealed

I lie to myself just to keep from what I really feel
I sin to numb the pain I feel
I cheat myself out of happiness because a pain like that I never again wish to feel
I steal the moments of feeling free cause never again may I be free
I fight cause I'm sad
The way Bitches make me feel

I'm at a pit stop in my life, feels like all I can do is wait and wonder waiting to see if that fuel will come and wondering how long will it last.My life I guess it has no meaning ta this point. Shit I'm tired of bitch ass niggas pulling me down.I try to keep positive people around me but how many do I really know.After you separate the haters from the players and the phonies from the frauds all you're left with is the realist people you could ever have around you who have been pushed too far. Niggas try to play me bitches wanna hate me;But keep oncause I see you really feeling me. Nah reall doh did you really think you could be me.

Life to me at this very moment means changes; changes for a lover changes for a better future Honestly I wanna change for the well being of my kids. I wanna provide them with a brighter future in the best way that I can and if that means starting with some changes well that's what I'm willing to do!! Like they say you can only live one day at a time right.

P.S. you ain't no different say what you want throw dirt on my name cause at the end of the day I'm
Hated By Plenty
Wanted By Many
Disliked By Some
But Confronted By None
chill
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